Happen

(I wrote this blog pretty fast. Forgive the misspellings and confusing explanations. )


Ruby, I'll talk primary to you, and hopefully Opal may see it later.
Sapphy and Lazi, you can also read it when you like.


Please brace yourself. You'll find unpleasant subjects will come.
You may want to read this in parts = Read, Rest, Read, Rest, Read.
I'm going to talk again about a "particular person". You should already know who it is.

Check


I usually avoid checking on this 'particular person' for months, and sometimes years. I don't check. I don't interfere. I'm normally uninterested about his activities and life in general. I don't usually look at his work.
I only check on them when I feel there's a need. [Mentioned: Blog Area > d4]
For example, I'll call 1 movie, the "Yu." movie. I didn't see this movie until about a year later. (When I wrote "d4". It's why I wrote "d4".)

Until today, I didn't check on him for a couple of months. Today, I saw 2 movies done by this person in mid-December. It kinda looks like it's a gesture of friendship to me. ( I didn't see all the movie, only partially.)

I wrote "Winter p.2 > Clear" without seeing these 2 Dec. movies. Because I didn't see them (to people who thought I did see them) this probably made me look very mean by rejecting his offer or gesture of friendship by writing "Winter p.2" immediately after he posted the movie. It makes me look like a bad guy. I didn't see those movies when I wrote it.

Understand, I usually don't ever look at his work.


Friendship


If this movie is about a possible friendship to me, then I write about it here.
These viewpoints may or may not be a true.

When two people want a friendship, they 'naturally' are attracted to each other. They naturally want to meet. They naturally want to come together. They naturally want to speak together. They naturally want to be in each other's company.

A) Let me tell you what happened about 6 years ago - before Sapphy. (Ruby, you probably know about her.) At that time, I loved a girl so much, with all my heart. My heart was being torn apart to pieces and I was completely heartbroken, when this 'particular person' was purposefully chasing after her trying to take her away - when I knew he didn't really love her when he first did. May I tell you what he was doing in the meantime while he was giving me this hardship? He was trying to be my friend.
While I saw he was stepping on me, while he was fighting for her, while he was insulting me, while he was trying to take the girl I cared so much about, while I felt he was being the worse to me, what was he doing? He was trying to be my friend.

B) Do you remember, or did you forget already in March 2021 what happened when he was trying to first take Sapphy away. He made a movie. What was he doing? He was (partially) trying to be my friend. [Mentioned in: Blog Area > "message"]

C) Today he gives me a year of hardship and very uncomfortable times, he tries to take every girl I care about, including primarily Sapphy, and last month what he appears to be doing? He's doing the same thing like 6 years ago, and like last year.
He probably knew I was making something for Lazi - because I announced it in a blog.
Because he has more help, he got to it done before me.
While it appears he's trying to take Lazi away
what again does it look like he may be doing? He's trying to be my friend.

When two people want to be friends it naturally brings them together.

In this case, one person wants a friendship, and the other person gives a response of "no" so many times (since about 6 years ago). If this movie is about a friendship, I'm sorry to say this but it's true: I feel I'm being pestered by him about a friendship over the years I don't want. Something is wrong, because it's not a natural attraction. For nearly the past decade I wasn't attracted and looking for a friendship with him in any way.

I remember, I was first hinting, then mentioning, then obviously saying 'no' since through the last half of 2021 (about).


What is What

Ruby, say as an example you have friends who's names are Loopy and Marble. Say, you and Loopy like to slap each other as a game for fun. If an onlooker sees you and Loopy slapping each other, they may get the wrong idea. The onlooker could think you're angrily fighting each other - when you're only playing.
Or say, you and Marble are holding hands, and an onlooker sees you. Here you're both fighting over jewelry you're both holding in your hands, squeezing onto it with your fingers. Although, the onlooker thinks you have a great bond - when he sees you holding hands.

This illustrates something; That only you and the person you are in a relationship with, knows what's really going on between you. Only Ruby and Loopy truly knows what's going on between them in their relationship. Or also, only Ruby and Marble truly knows what's currently happening between them in a relationship. That they are not angry - but they are only playing. Or, that they are not holding hands because of like - but temporarily struggling against themselves.

Concerning any relationship between him and I, there's only 2 people who really knows what's going on - him and me.
I probably know more than anyone, what has progressed in these past few years between each other. Everyone else does not have the true view when onlooking from far off apart from him and me.

We are only friends if we "both" agree that we are friends. If him and I were to have a relationship, only him and I will know the reasons it is or it is not working. For reasons I blog above and below, I keep plainly saying he's not a friend.
When persons see he's friendly, and attempts to be a friend to me, when I keep giving a 'no', people could believe then I'm a very mean guy - when they have no idea what's really happening, and if they believe every friendship in general is good.

It's not to be mean, it's only logical. If a person is not a friend, the simple answer is: Not to get in a relationship with him.


Mic and Ap


Over the period of about 6 years, came a realization perhaps.

Hypothesize this as a fantasy situation. Take Microsoft and Apple, who may likely be on opposite sides. Anytime one company attacks another company, a good way to do it is if a person from either side could try to physically get in to the company building first, for the best possible place to attack. We'll hypothesize Microsoft wants to attack Apple. Somehow a Microsoft guy may go to get an interview as an Apple employee. When he gets into position inside the building, he can do much better damage.

I believe Sapphy is his primary aim. If Sapphy doesn't usually invite him, what can he do? Group all of us as a physical building, and Sapphy as the item in the building he's trying to get to. He may likely come through you Sisters, or maybe me, or maybe through Lazi. First it's like he has to pass an interview with anyone of our building exterior sides to get in - we are the sides. Once he passes the interview of being a friend, he gets in bounds physically.

Why would he want to get in? If Sapphy is his primary aim, he wants to "get in" physically, to get into position for going after Sapphy.

He could actually want to be my friend to go after Sapphy. He could actually want to be your friend to go after Sapphy. He could maybe be Lazi's friend to go after Sapphy. I had the suspicion about him all along from a previous encounter, that his first attempt after Sapphy may likely have come from dislike of me. He may be all smiles with you, but I see a different person (....from these few years.)

Is it a genuine friendship for you, if he's really going after her?
Is it a real friendship for me, if he's really attempting after her?
Friendship, is not about taking away from someone. A friendship is about benefitting someone. Is he doing that for me or you for these 2 situations?

(To briefy explain, the difference between the other girl I care about, and the 'particular guy' you care about,
is she is there for a true relationship.
Also she's not trying to specifically put all her effort into hurting you, every time I talk to her.)


Go To

I mentioned this before. Even with other possible choices available, he's chased after my exact girl love interest 2 times in row. For good reasons, I decided to let the other girl go. Then when I found a new girl Sapphy, 'eventually' he stopped going after that girl also, and started chasing after Sapphy.

Unless it's a purposeful act, like as coming from a grudge, it's highly unlikely for anyone to chase another man's love interest 2 times in a row.
If this is true, that it is on purpose, consider the possible fact that if he is chasing Sapphy out of maybe a lingering grudge for me, it's possible he wants to get with you from this same reason. This could mean possibly, he's there out of dislike, rather than friendship, like, or love for you.

If you didn't like when I made you feel you're second place, then if he's getting with you to get with Sapphy, isn't he putting you in that same second place too? If this is true, there is a difference between me getting with you and him doing the same. I won't be there from dislike for anyone, but I gave you Sisters my heart and all that comes with it. (I've been also giving it to you, Lazi, for being their friend.)


What is What 2


In "What is What" I had said only him and I knows what's really between us.

Between when a guy does appreciate me and my work, and when a guy does not appreciate me and my work, I believe I know the difference.

For this case, when this 'particular person's' work resembles mine, I sincerely believe it's not from appreciation. If you're interested in the explanation, please go here. [Mentioned in: "Blog Area" > "oatraisyr" > A Subject - Talking about colors.]


If the movie could be to appeal to me, then it depends about what I say that makes it a hit or miss. Does a movie make everything right for me (when I consider all the hard times he's made)? I say, a movie doesn't make everything right for me to have a possible friendship. Actually, by going after Lazi while at that very same time I was opening up my feelings to her, I felt it was the exact opposite. (It's the same actions he's been doing these last years.)

Why? Because 1 or 2 movies in Dec. don't make all last year's hardship of wrong right. 1 or 2 movies don't make all the wrong that I felt that has been done to me right; To act on dislike of 6 years, is not an act of frienship. I'm sorry. It doesn't work that way.

Is it any work for me? I haven't considered him any kind of friend. Is it a work for Lazi? It looks like he may have done it to beat my work for her (after I had announced it).


I continually would like and try to stress this. There will not be a friendship between him and I. No matter what any onlooker says, only he and I know what's really happening. What do I say? For me, any friendship coming from him is plain nonsense.

There will not be one for at least the next 4 years. [Mentioned in: Winter p.2] Sorry, it won't happen.
If again it's ever in question. I keep saying this, so I hope you remember.

Again, it's only logical, when a person is not a friend. The simple answer is: I am no longer interested.
(Girls, if you find there isn't a true friendship also, I'm hoping you will follow my example - even if others say it's a good idea to.)

If he's reaching out to me, after I've said, "I'm not interested," I no longer check on him, and I'm no longer paying attention. If it appears I'm being heartless, it's because I probably don't know about it.


Ruby


Ruby I hope you read this. Can you tell Opal also, that I love the first blue dress image - the upward shot climbing up the metal ladder (?). I didn't know how to tell her. She didn't know that I really very much like everything she does specifically for me. Yah, I can see she doesn't like me right now. Say, "hi,' if the mood is ever right. If not, then don't bother her about anything.

Maybe she doesn't, but if she has any concerns about another girl, I hope she can see this other girl is also like a friend that makes me feel good. You understand how it is, when there is someone who can do that. Is there any way we can look past it for awhile? There's some intimacy, but through it I normally continue a dedication to you ladies.

Ruby, you look Russian in the striped dress, fur hat, and fur coat. (If I remember correctly.)
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Have a great January. Blog later and bye.

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Posted: Jan. 8, 2022, 9:30pm PST

Update: Jan 9, 5:40pm 4:40am, 3:30am